right now i just want to lay out and just put my thoughts on pause
its not that i'm tired of them, its just that they bring too many emotions
no doubt things are going beautifully now
but i'm missing something.
yeah i know that you may be wondering what it is
hell, i dont even know. its just not there.
whatever it is can make my smile slowly fade away, make me cross my arms and lean up on a table or lay back on a couch and close my eyes
tears arent present much and i dont wanna shed any
well, i do, but i dont because my tears make me feel alone
theres no one there to lean on when i cry
i remember when one of my close friends cried on my shoulder
she was just crying so hard and i couldnt do anything but say it would be okay
rub her on her back and let her cry
there is no one here like that for me
everyone is too far away right now, so its me and my pillow
me and my pillow
i'm definitely not depressed
I'M IN THE MIDDLE OF MY SENIOR YEAR
i'm excited, happy, loving it
but empty somewhere
whats the missing piece of the puzzle.
posted by the inspired @ 6:15 PM
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That emptiness can be found present in myself as well. As perfect as it seems for me, or i make it seem. I still long to be held. To have those fingers in my hair. To cry within ones arms until my tear ducts become dry. To stare off into space atempting to find that missing....something. Not ever knowing what it is or wus, no clues. Just one fact. That with this something i can be happy. N so our hearts search for this, for how long, i know not. But i wish our search would end, don't u?
that made a lot of sense, you'll make it through this
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